so I got my first job! tenko teriyaki house in irvine. my sister works there, and thanks to her and the fact that my boss likes her a lot, I was able to get the job.
today was my first day, and I was pretty damn nervous. I was so nervous that I was physically shaking. I was even so flustered that I couldn’t subtract 43 from 100. I just stood in front of the cashier, stupid. :( how embarrassing. note to self: must go back to kindergarten and learn how to subtract.
overall, it was pretty fun, even though there was a lot to take in, and a lot of things very new to me. I hope I get a hang of it quickly, and I really hope that the cooks will like me. sharon already had some bad interactions with the cooks, and today I can’t tell if they like me or not. they’re intimidating. good thing my boss is super nice to me, and today he already said that I’m going to do a good job there. (:
it’s a very nice feeling to know that I am finally earning money for myself on my own. I do feel bad when I ask my parents for money, so I was really hoping to find a job. now I kind of feel that even IF I do get into usc, I should maybe stick to irvine and keep a steady job? we’ll see.
so come grab some lunch/dinner and visit me at tenko teriyaki house! <3
“Saying something rude then following it with “I’m just being real” doesn’t excuse the fact that you still said something rude. It, in fact, correlates your “real being” with rudeness.”—An observation. (via gabebondoc)
I was faced with a problem and I had to decide which path to take. but when I chose one path, I wanted the other. so I changed my mind, but then I had second thoughts. I turned around and went back to my first decision. but now this sinking, empty feeling is arising and again, I wish I could have the other. why can’t I have both? why can’t I please everyone?
I know that didn’t make much sense. I can hardly make sense of it myself. all I know is that I hated to make the decision that I had to make. I hated those words, “it’s all up to you. in the end, it’s your choice.” I wish that life was simple.
it isn’t the end of the world, I know. people try to reassure me that everything happens for a reason and that, if it was meant to be, it will work out in the end. maybe I’ll move on, but maybe I won’t. I wish I could fast-forward my life and see what my future looked like. it would make my life so much easier.
So, you know how everyone thinks that the Top is his totem, but in the beginning he mentions that it’s actually Mal’s? Well, you see, if it’s not his totem, then it’s not going to properly work for him. Cobb’s totem is his WEDDING RING. Whenever he’s dreaming, he has a wedding ring on because, as he says, in his dreams, they’re still together. In reality, he’s not wearing a ring. During the last scene of the movie? He’s not wearing a ring. BAM, REALITY.