sometimes I wonder why we bother to make resolutions. we - or at least I - always end up keeping it up for a month or so, and then completely forgetting about it as we get over the “new year high” and get on with our lives. it’s nice, though, to have goals, and I am not saying that you are incapable of attaining them. I’m not a debbie-downer, I swear! haha, but anyway, on with the resolutions:
1) be happy.
I always feel this negative attitude weighing me down. it’s this constant voice in my head, pointing out the cons of each situation, persuading me that things could be better. it’s true, there’s always a better possible situation, but what I have - my home, my possessions, my friends, my family, and especially, above all those things, God- is more than enough. it’s the realization of that fact, acceptance and being content.
I see these people around me, and they are almost like a different breed. they radiate with happiness and love and joy; with one smile, and my day is better. it’s not even a fake smile, a facade to cover up the sadness or anger inside, but it’s a genuine joy. I want to discover that joy.
2) let go.
I’m sure you know that I am a, often, terribly shy person who does not talk much and keeps to herself. well, I’m sure that the people I live with in my hall feel that way. but I don’t want to be that person. I want to be approachable and not intimidating (the adjective I have heard ascribed to me countless times). I would like to be able to strike up a conversation with someone and avoid the awkward pauses. the problem I have is self-consciousness. I’m afraid to open myself up to people so quickly because I don’t know what they will think of me. it just takes a while for me to become close with somebody, and then maintaining that relationship is even harder. spontaneity is another thing I want to achieve. live life. we’re all gonna die next year anyway, right?! (just kiddingg.)
3) find God.
this should be at the top of my list. every year this resolution is a priority for me, but it ends up taking the back seat as everything else seems to take over. I don’t know where to start with this. but hopefully, I can find the right path, where God is the driver, not me.
I think this is enough talk from me. congratulations if you read through all of it. I applaude you, sincerely! I wish you luck with all of your new resolutions, and I hope you can do the same for me. happy new year! (:
here’s a couple photos from my new year’s day. this is a korean tradition. you bow to your parents, grandparents, aunts and uncles. and yes, there is money inside the envelopes. (:
I love this picture of my parents.
btw, tong discovered a bakery in westminster that sells macarons!?!! it is in the plaza with boiling crab. I am going there ASAP.